Ailie's Poetry

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened!

 

Some of these poems are Ailie's that she wrote,

and some are ones she saved or emailed

to me because they meant

something to her.

 

From: "Ailie Pearson" <tommychick420@hotmail.com> 

To: Lillyanna@hotmail.com

 Subject: more awwwwws 

Date: Wed, 22 Nov 2000 03:14:12 -0000 

"Loving someone forever means loving them, even if it means letting them love someone else" 

"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you" 

" If I could reach up and grab a star for every time you've made me smile the whole sky would be in the palm of my hand." 

" You know its love when you don't want to go to sleep because reality is better than your dreams!! " 

" Guys are like stars there are millions of them but only one can make all your dreams come true." 

"I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away.

 I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away.

 So I wrote your name in my heart, and that's where it will stay " 

"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, a hour to like someone, a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget them" 

Of all the animals, man is the cruelest. He is the only one that inflicts pain for his own pleasure. 

~~Never fear shadows, for it simply means there is a light shining nearby~~

If I only see you in my dreams, then let me sleep forever 

When I fell in love I never knew how hard it was to get back up.

 

Subject: awwww 

Date: Wed, 22 Nov 2000 02:49:48 -0000 

" I loved you yesterday, I love you still! 

Always have, always wilL!" 

" Its easy to fall in love but its hard to find the right person to catch you."

  "I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. 

I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away.

 So I wrote your name in my heart, and that's where it will stay " 

" Love starts with a smile , grows with a kiss , and ends with a tear. " 

" I miss you when something good happens to me,

 because you are the one I want to share it with first, 

I miss you when something bad happens,

 because you make everything better,

 I miss you when I cry, because you kiss my tears away,

 I miss you when I*m laughing because you make my laughter grow, 

I miss you through all those times, but I miss you the most 

when I*m lying in bed at night thinking about you, because before 

I always knew someway, somehow, you were thinking of me too, 

and that is why it is then that I miss you the most, because 

I*m not so sure your thinking about me anymore !! " 

"You'll always remember the first guy you fell in love with,

but you will never be able to forget the first guy who broke your heart" 

 

You ripped my heart out

 and didn't give a damn

 And everybody now wonders 

why it's this way that I am

 I shed my tears and blood for you 

sleepless nights did I live 

But yet you go on with your life 

and a drop of your love you can't even give

Do you know what it's like 

to feel such pain and misery

 Obviously not, for your smile

 I can so clearly see

 Don't worry about me, though, 

I'm sure that I'll get through 

And I'll be the one laughing my ass off

 when the same thing happens to you...

 

To Mom

From: "Ailie Pearson" <tommychick420@hotmail.com

Subject: send this to chris 

Date: Thu, 16 Nov 2000 23:53:48 GMT 

Ever since I saw your face 

My heart just fell right into place 

You have the cutest eyes I've seen 

You always looked sweet and never so mean 

And although you may have hurt me 

And most likely made me cry 

It doesn't mean we can't see each other 

Or give our love a try 

I've always fallen in love before 

But it's never been real true 

But when I saw you walk through that door, 

I knew my true love was you 

I love you with all my heart 

I hope we'll be together and never fall apart 

* I just want you to know that you are so precious 

* I want you more than anything including prom dresses 

* Speaking about the prom 

* I want you to be there 

* I want us to be together and show how much we care 

I hope that you will become mine 

From now until the end of time 

When I picture you and me in love 

I imagine touching your hand as soft as a dove 

Being with you is a living fantasy 

You have everything I want including personality 

You're as sweet as candy 

And as soft as a pillow 

And to mention your looks 

You are such a cute fellow 

I hope now that you've read this 

You realize how I feel 

My love is not fake 

It is unbelievably real 

And now I'd like to pop the question 

I've waited so long to ask 

Chris will you go out with me? 

I'll make our love last... 

 

    

I'M Gonna Let You Go Now 

I'm gonna let you go now
It's time to say goodbye
I loved you when I met you
and I'll love you till I die

But I'm gonna put you away
and all our memories too
I'm getting too weak
to pretend that I still have you

I'm not strong anymore
I feel so sick I can't breath
 want to hold you forever
but really you should leave

But I know you won't say goodbye
so I guess it's my turn
Love is great but it never lasts
thats a lesson I did learn

So goodbye
It's time for you to go
You were everything to me
I thought I'd let you know
I'm gonna let you go now
This is my final goodbye
I loved you when I met you
and I'll love you till I die
 
The razors at my wrist I’m determined
to go deep. I promised I would do this,
but it’s a promise I can’t keep.

I’m sitting on the phone with you
just cutting away.
Once all this is through I can look to
brighter days.

I won’t have to suffer in silence I won’t
have to cry.
I won’t have to think every minute that
I want to die.

But it seems the only way to be freed
from this pain is to just let go.
But it's hard for me and no one knows.

A voice in my head is saying it’s right
go for it theres nothing to
lose.
No ones going to cry when they
hear the bad news.

Then another voice says don’t do it
You’ll get over him quick.
Then I’m left with two choices and I
Don’t know which one to pick.

I think of what will happen if I were to end my life.
Just with one slice of a knife.
Then I think, well what if I just live and overcome this pain.
Look past the dark clouds and heavy rain.

Then I ask my self will he miss me when I’m gone?
Yeah right his life will go on.
He wouldn’t care he wouldn’t shed a tear.
He wouldn’t be wishing I was still near.

Well it’s finally time for me to go.
And while I’m gone I’ll be missing you so
 
 Tears on my face
falling
falling
dropping to my pillow.
They flow from my eyes
in a never
ending
flood
drowning the pain.
They wash away the dirt
anger
sadness
lies.
They purify me.
Wash away the things
that I've done.
They sting my eyes
burning
tearing
ripping my heart
I feel like I'll explode
if I can't cry.
The anger swells up
boiling
raging
wanting to break free.
Finally it does
light
darkness
intertwined
flowing though my
head and
heart
The tears stop
falling
falling
I pick my head up
look
watch wait.
The pain has finally stopped.
The tears worked.
They
washed
everything
away
for
now.
 
 
It's Always and Forever
if you die
i will die too
when you feel pain
i feel it too
you will move on
from guy to guy
Just like i
we will both cry
we will just sit there
and hold each other tight
hug and cry
it will be alright
*----* guyz right??
we got each other
we'll always be best friends
always and forever
To:  meliha lee joe radatz
...you my girl!!!
I'll love you always...
don't forget me *hugs*
 
 
Ailie wrote the following poem when her Grandfather Vernon Pearson died, just a short while before her death.

All uf us will miss you
and we won't ever stop
Whenever we have more tears to shed
We'll just let them drop

When we had some pain or sorrow
You were always there
to hug and comfort us
we knew you always cared.

We know you are still with us,
Always in our hearts
You don't every say a word,
You just play your harp

Now we have to live
without you by our sides
but we will always remember you,
and say your name with pride!


Ailie Anna 7/99