Memories of Ailie Page 1
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Bonnie
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3/5/01 - Read by Katie at Ailie's Funeral... Today we kneel and bow our heads to pray for a beautiful young girl that we had taken away As we all join together for a mourning we are putting a memory puzzle together to try and put the realization of the loss in today's frame. So, in my bed, is where I sit and reminess of a girl who kept me strong and was there for me all day long. Being a friend not a foe, you set our hearts aglow. Every time it snows we will think of you and your pure heart. Everytime it rains, we will think of you and regain our hope for all of our losses. Every time it's sunny, we will think of you and all the parties you went to. We'll see your smiley little face and it will brighten our days. Every time the autumn aroma fills the air, we will think of you and hope you are near. Through all these seasons we all have reasons to believe that in the shadows we may catch a glimpse of a beautiful young girl who we cannot see. We may step outside in the brisk air and feel a chill from someone who's always been there and smell a fragrance of a girl who has always cared. So, from all of us, Ailie, we all miss you and always will, and we know you will be with us still. So, rest in peace my sweet, dear friend, and may you be happy with God. Love, Your Dear Friend Katie |
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A Rose Among the Tears A Rose among the tears I shed Lies quietly on your grave, and though I'm trying very hard I fear I am not brave, For missing you is the hardest thing My heart has ever known, And I just want to be with you instead of here alone. But now is not the time for me To go where you have gone, but in your footsteps I shall walk until I see the dawn For that is where I know that I Shall find your soul to be, And then the shadow of your grave will lose it's hold on me... |
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From: Alexyanne@aol.com To: lillyanna@hotmail.com (Bonnie) Subject: Ailie Anna Has Died The mother that sits here has tried to imagine your pain. She cannot. She sits here and remembers the struggles and the joy which you spoke about so very often. How vey focused you were in guiding your daughter. I think sometimes we, as parents, never have a chance with the ones who are so special and fly. Please know, when you have spoken to all your friends, and they have hugged you...Loved you...PLEASE KNOW there is someone else out there who has loved you as a friend..appreciated you and smiled often at your words of Smiley..and I will share this awful nightmare. As small as it may seem, you have been loved and respected so very much as a good friend. This awful happening is something we never ever thought would happen. Silently I remain your friend, confidant, and as a mother..mourn with you.. We may not speak alot but we both know how the true feelings are there..infiltrate the day and night. We also know how friends...true friends are always there. So, in this sadness and true nightmare, someone is sharing it with you far, far away...so...turn over and feel the comfort of an arm. A hand resting on your shoulder. Tis the sad work of the angel... I am with you in your struggles. I always have been. Now, I ask..Can I help? She sparkled plenty! I wonder if you know how, even as you struggled with her teen years, how very proud and satisfied you were with her...You were a fantastic mother to her. Us parents and those kids always make it seem different, but ahhh ..know she knew she was greatly loved... It was wonderful to speak with you. Know I am thinking of you and you are not alone, pretty one. I cannot be of much help, but i do share ...as much as I can...your hurt.... Know what else? I am very greatful to have met and known you..thru the good times and bad. It just hit me like a ton of bricks, why Ailie had her sparkle.. You, Sweetheart! She was, and is, beautiful because of you. Love, Lexy |
Ordinary School Day
I buckled up my seat belt, mom
I remembered what you said
you told me to buckle up, mom
so I did use my head.
I felt really proud inside, Mom
the way you said I would
I buckled up my seat belt, Mom
and the others said I should
I know I did the right thing, Mom
I know your always right
I smile as we drive away, Mom
and the school leaves my sight.
As we go down Aitkin Road, Mom
I knew I'd get back in one piece
because of the way you raised me, Mom
so responsible and sweet.
He started to slow down, Mom
as I took my seat belt off
I didn't want my jacket on, Mom
so I took them both off.
As I lay here in the ditch, Mom
I hear the police man say
"She'd of been okay, if she had her belt on", Mom
but why do I have to pay?
I'm laying here dying, Mom
I wish you'd get here soon,
How could this happen to me, Mom
my life burst like a balloon.
My breaths are getting shorter now, Mom
I'm becoming very scared,
Please don't cry for me, Mom
Because when I need you most,
You were always there!
I have one last question, Mom
before I say goodbye,
It's their fault the road isn't paved, Mom
so why amd I the one to die?
This is the end now, Mom
I wish I could look in your eyes,
To say these final words, Mom
"I Love You, and Goodbye!"
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To: Bonnie From: Meliha Radatz Bonnie: Thanks for sending me that!! I'm sorry I haven't been able to make it over there lately..I would like to come and visit to watch those videos! I will try and visit soon. I don't know what to do, I'm so confused. I was going to call you that night I couldn't sleep at all but when I wanted to call it was like 12 so I decided not to. Everything seems so fucked up now that Ailie is gone. My whole life seems so dramatically different without her. I'm so not ready to deal with anything. I wish I could just sleep my life away and never have to awaken to the world's bull shit. I feel like I'm going crazy. I've never had to deal with someone close dying! I feel so lonely. Ailie was the other half of me...we were so opposite. What I didn't have, she had, and what she didn't have, I did! For example: I'm shy..Ailie wasn't, and being around her made me loosen up and she helped me to be who I am. I am more homebound (don't like to go to parties and things like that) then she was and that helped her too. It helped her stay out of trouble. She completed me. Without her I just don't feel like ME anymore. It's so wierd, and hard to explain what Ailie meant to me, and I'm ashamed of growing apart from her when I met Jeremy. I didn't mean to, but I did. I guess I knew Ailie would always be there for me, and I know she would have, but I wasn't there for her all the time when I should have been. I always told her that I was sorry for not being there and she always told me she understood, but I wish so badly that I would have spent more time with her. We used to be inseperable, but when Jeremy came around, we seperated. I'm still so shocked over it. It doen't seem real. I miss her so much. I pray at night and tell her how my day was and how much I love and miss her, but it's not enough for me! I want to hear her voice and see her smile at me. I'm soooo messed up in the head. I can't even think right. I hate being away from you Bonnie. You are like another mom to me. I need someone to talk to that will REALLY listen. I can't talk to other people about how I feel, it just doesn't seem right. But it would if I could just sit and talk to you and let all my feelings out. Maybe we can do that someday. I'm tired of hiding how I feel about Ailie's death. I really just want to get it all out. I know it would make me feel better. Well, I guess I should let you go. I probably took alot of your time up and I know you've been pretty busy lately so I won't take any more of your time. But please call me if you need anything. I love you, and be strong. HUGS AND KISSES sent to you and Rob, love always, Meliha |
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A letter from Cody: Hey! Whatcha doing up there in the sky? Wile I'm down here trying not to cry. Missing you dearly and that soft, sweet smile. Knowing all your hugs will be gone for awhile. Hoping God forgives me so I can someday see you. To see your beautiful smile and a heart that was true. Open your eyes girl and open those wings. Fly to the heavens to find happier things. But Please, if you will, talk to me still. Let me know you are still there and that you still care. I miss you baby bubba and I do love you. But through all this pain, I know you loved me too. I try to find comfort but don't know where to look. I'm at a loss of words to say that I'm sorry for what you went through. I should have been the one to go. How do I go on without you? I do not know. All these feelings that won't ever be shown. How do I grieve, how do I cry? For someone who leaves, or someone who dies? I miss your touch, so warm it was. Like a dream come true... and I love you Boo..I do! |
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Following is a page printed off the internet, that I found in Ailie's room after she died. He is Always There for Us We can't forsee the turning of the tide When problems beset us and tears are cried. Sometimes life deals from the bottom of the deck Filling us with worry and leaving us a wreck. The enemy seeks to devour and destroy, Using decdeptions to eliminate our joy. While walking through the valley, our heads hung low, The mountain top seems so high, our footsteps slow. How many times have we traveled this road To battle the frustrations of troubles bestowed? Yet when we come to our darkest our God demonstrates His infinite power. It doesn't matter how bad things might seem, He always comes through, our faith to redeem. God will not fail us in our times of pain. He'll never forsake us, by our side He'll remain. so when we find ourselves at a total loss Or when the valley seems too wide to cross, just remember your're in His love and care, Look over your shoulder, he's always there! |
March 2, 2001 - 10:00 PM
RIP
Ailie Pearson
Love,
Yours 4 ever
Colin Johnson
JUST YOU AND ME
Nobody sees what I can see in you
for in the back of my eyes,
there's only me and you.
Nobody knows where my thoughts of
me and you begin,
for there's only myself in my skin...
But me and you girl,
we're just like kin.
But it's weird, I feel as if I've sinned.
But now I feel alone as if
you left me,
but I keep telling myself it's not true
because thats not something you would do..
No one can understand how much
I care for you
I may not show it on the outside
I don't know why..
I think it is because I am scared
I have never lost someone
as close to me as you
I don't know what to think
or say...I can't believe you are gone..
"OH" girl....
I can't believe it was you...
I miss you so much it hurts
when I think of you.
I feel empty inside
I wish I could have at least
have been by your side, so
I could have helped you
or at least say I'll stay
by your side and be there for you...
but I didn't even get
to say goodbye.
Now I am feeling blue inside,
but I hope you are happy
and peacefull
I hope you will greet me in a dream
or give me a few signs
to help pass this sad time,
because it's just me and you...
and I know you will help me
make it through!
Because It Will Always Be Me and You!
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To a Special Somebody Ailie Pearson, the girl everyone knew... has passed away. It's sad but true.. I wish you were still with us, So it could be how it was... You are definately a true friend. From the beginning to the end.. because all the funny things you used to do.. We will never forget you We will see Smiley Ailie once again When we cross the golden gates of heaven.. By: Bruce Radatz |
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Dear Bonnie: It is so hard to write, right now, but I just felt like I needed to. I want you to know that I think you are a great Mom, and I know for a fact, that Ailie knows that too! She always felt your love. I know you had your fights, all families do, but we did talk about it, and she told me she knew you loved her and did great things for her. I think it is important for you to know that. She is such a ray of sunshine, even though I was exasperated with her at times, you couldn't help but lover her!! She will be greatly missed! Please take care of yourself and let me know if there is ever anything I can do. Love, Tracy Sheldon, Teacher Croswell Learning Center |
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Ailie: You are not alone. Another day has gone, I'm still all alone. How could this be? You are not here with me. You never said goodbye. Did you have to go and leave? My world is so cold. Everyday I sit and ask myself, how did love slip away? Something whispers in my ear and says, that you are not alone, for I am here with you. Though you are far away, I am here to stay. For you are not alone, I am here for you though we are far apart. You are always in my heart...for you are not alone. Love Always, Collen Werr |
If Tomorrow Never Comes
If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in tighter
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in priase,
I would video tape each action and work,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say I love you,
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
well I' m sure you'll have so many more
so I can let just this one slip away,
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.
There will always be another day
to say out, "I love you's,"
and certainly theres another chance
to say out, "Anything I can do's?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
and today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
so if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
tht you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So always hold them dear.
Take time to say I'm sorry, please forgive
me,Thank you, or It's okay.
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today!
Ailie's Last Email to Mom
To Her Mother the Day Before She Died
if i live to be 18
and everyone is mean
it's gonna be alri-i-i-ight
if i loose all my firends
and i think my worlds gonna end
i know ill be just fi-i-i-i-ine
cuz I know exactly whooo i ammmmmmmm
(course)
i am paul c pearsons' daughter
the spitting immage of my mother
and when the days done shes still my biggest fan
sometimes...im really super funny
and still got friends who love me
and they know where i stand...
its all a part of me,
and thats who i am *L*
(like my remix???lol:)
Today God Called You Home
Today God called you home
Extended his arms & opened Heaven's Door
I never knew emptiness
Nor have I ever cried like this before
I know your one of Heaven's Angels
and all I have to do is look above
You're in a happier place now
No pain, no sadness..just eternal love.
You're no longer suffering
Your work on earth is done
God called you home
a new life in Heaven has begun.
But here on earth
There's a new star in the sky
Shining with your spirit
To keep your memory alive.
You're one of Heaven's Angels now
You'll always be with me, near or far
And when I need your guidance
I'll look above to that shining star.
In my heart
You'll always hold a special place
that no one else
could ever replace
If only I could have
that shining star again to touch..
Just to let you know
How I love you so much!
But I don't have to tell you
For you have always known
You're one of Heaven's Angels now
for When God calls me home...
By: Brandy Marie Stanko
To: My 3rd Mom
This poem is for you. I love you!
Always will, I'll never forget you. Hopefully
we keep in touch. Thanks for everything you've
done for me.....From: Your other daughter
Brandy
A Bouquet From Heaven
May each day unfold for you
Like roses, sparkling with dew,
That open to the morning sun
And bloom until the day is done.
And may each passing moment bring
A song as pure as angels sing
but may there be above all things
a peace that only Ailie can bring...
Written by: Valerie Pearson
March 2, 2001
Untold Stories
Untold stories
unspoken words
secrets of the heart
I have never heard
dreams of a life
of pleasures and peace
suddenly waiting
for the Lord to speak
"Come with me child
it's time to go home"
The land is free
the trees will blow
the gift of love
will forever behold
the words of our
savior, in peace
he wil be waiting
for you by an olive tree
by: Tricia Bugaiski
3/18/01
To Ailie:
May you rest in peace...
Ailie-Bean Forever
It's not fair, it's not right
how God could take her
from our sight.
She had her whole life to live,
she had so much love to give,
How could God be so mean?
To take my Ailie-Bean?
She was my little sister
and my friend
But I never showed it
until the end.
Ailie, I want you to know,
that in my heart you will
always glow,
Little sister and friend
you will always be,
Even though I can't have you here
with me!
I love you, Ailie-Bean!
5/15/01
By: Mark Radatz
RIP
I miss my Smiley Ailie. I wish it was not true.
I still can't believe it. It's like it never
happened. I wish I had a chance to show my
love to you. I love you more than a friend.
I loved you like a sister. A sister I never had.
I still love you as my sister and you will
always be in my heart till the day I die.
I will never forget my sister, My Smiley Ailie.
From Mama
Song for My Girl Child
beauty
startling in it's blush
and whispers of true passion
a bird that I held gently back
from flying to
the fashion
myth of innocence and tender child
you think that I don't know
all the dances raging
in your new hearts river flow
sure as stone you are
that I could never understand
how you float just up above
the earth
untouched by any man
but i know how a young girls feet
can curl upon the ledge
and how a mother's lions love
can sing her to the edge
I remember looking up
and how the endless dark
hung huge with ever afters
around my eyes
like stars
and if you look into my eyes
you'll recognize the shine
that window that you're gazing from
dear daughter
once was mine.....
tiatrue
To Ailie (tommychick420@hotmail.com)
from: Meliha (adidasgirl122@hotmail.com)
An Angel in Disguise -
I lost an angel of 16
she was my friend, my joy, my everything.
Her continuous smile was so big, and her
smile so bright, why did God have to take
such a beautiful sight?
Such laughter arose when Ailie was around,
now, when I walk in a room, i listen, silence,
not a single sound.
Now that it's hit me; she's lying in peace,
I ask God, "Give me a chance to talk to her please?"
If only I could have held her and told her I cared,
I would have told her how much I cherished the
times that we've shared.
If only we could go back to the hour long talks
that we had, and if only I could have been by
her side at that time, so sad.
If only I would have went to school that day,
maybe I could have convinced her, maybe she would
have stayed.
I wish we could have spent mor days/time,
but the memories will stay close to this lonely
heart of mine.
I can only wish, and wishers don't come true,
I can only wait and ponder the next time
I will see you...
So goodbye my Smiley, I promise I'll see you someday,
Smile down on me, keep me safe, and
for you I'll pray.
Written by: Meliha Radatz
I'll always love that girl
no matter the distance...
and I'll always keep her close
to my heart...
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To My Beloved Ailie: I sit in this chair 4 years after my Dad's death writing the same kind of goodbyes, hoping that you will find them or they will be waiting to guide you...as we all tried for you and your smile did for us. Ailie I love you and will miss and cherish your memory. for with you, they were always worth remembering...Keep an eye on me and help us through this pain. I will live for the day I see your smile.....Dad, Little Larry, Jason....I live and love through you.... Love, Cousin Dan Krause |
There comes a time for us to leave,
in God's hands is where I'll be
From now to then to the end of time,
I will always be in your hearts and mind
All my love is what I gave
All memories you should save
Never forget the good nor bad
I am so sorry if you are sad
Just be happy for me on this day
I am sorry that I left this way
I will remember you all, as you are
So remember me, when you see a star
Now I am with God, as happy as can be
so please don't feel sorrow for me
I know the tears, from your eyes will fall
I guess that is one reason why, I love you all
{Written by: Mark Schuck}
In Memory of Ailie Pearson, dedicated to her by Tricia Bugaiski
and her other friends...
She will be missed very much!
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To All Parents By: Edgar A. Grant I'll lend you for a little time a child of Mine, He said for you to love the while she lives and mourn for when she's dead. It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or three, But will you, till I call her back, take care of her for me? She'll bring her charms to gladden you, and shall her stay be brief You'll have her lovely memories as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay, since all from earth return, but there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn I've looked the wide world over in my search for teachers true And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes I have selected you. Now will you give her all your love, nor think the labor vain, Nor hate ME when I come to call to take her back again?
I fancied that I heard them say: "Dear Lord, Thy will be done" For all the joy thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run We'll shelter her with tenderness, we'll love her while we may And for the happiness we've known forever grateful stay; But shall the angels call for her much sooner than we've planned We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand. |
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Hi :) I wrote a poem about Ailie, I thought u might like
My Angel I was there the day you went away I heard your last words you struggled to say We fought for the front seat before we left I won the fight, you sat in the back You flew out the back window and landed in a ditch I shouldhave gave you the front I'm such a bitch You missed out on so much you would have loved The prom, marriage, your 17th birthday in 2 months Your motto was to party and always have fun You kept everyone smiling, those days are done I know you're in heaven being you I can't wait till I reach the gates and me and you become two... Shannon Check |
Ailie's Poem to Mom...Unfinished...
My Mother holds a special key,
it opens doors,
it unlocks me.
Silver hands
and a golden heart.
Green eyes and a passion for art.
"Take a look in the mirror....
What do you see?"
Mother I see a vision of you
and a vision of me...
Mother I love u
with all my heart
and I hope that we will
never part....:****(
Ailie's Poem from Sierra
You went to heaven to be with God,
and now through the Lord
you have a new job!
As you guard the Golden Gates
in your mini skirt, and white wings of silk!
You wish you could wake up,
from this nightmare your in,
and to be with all your family and friends agani.
But just think, now your free to fly in the sky!
so fly high Rocketgirl, your home, now don't cry!
Love,
Sierra
Blessing of a Mother
By: Valerie Pearson
A pageant she did not win, or a gold medal for her love,
but of all the mothers that I know
He sent her from above,
He didn't need to take more time
to form this woman's heart,
He saw that she had it in her from the very start
The patience that she gave them, the way she dried their tears
Heaven blessed this mother with so many cherished years.
Although her heart is broken, two children she has lost
It's just another way
he passes out the cross..
Her eyes were filled with marvel, each child that she bore
Her home was filled with angels, a breath of freshened air
They cannot tell her on this special day, her babies now at rest,
but I know God blesses this mother who always gave her best
So on this Mother's Day, my dear, be so very strong...
God sent you his angels, you held them in your arms,
Though you cannot hug them now nor dry their tears..
I came to wish you Happy Mother's Day
and send blessings throughout the years!!
I Wish Dear Ailie
By: Trevor Perry
I wish I could turn back the hands of time,
to change some of the things I did to me,
and ask myself just how it could be
she died at the age of 16
I loved her with all my heart,
promised her we would never part,
I wish I could have just checked off the chart,
I wish I could just see her again
smile, laugh, and be with her again,
Listen to her tell me I got some food on my chin,
call me a scrub, then go on eating again,
just wonder why I must live in sin?
But now I'm going to try to believe that
I can see you again.
I allow myself to think it was my fault
and couldn't be forgiving,
Just give it up for a better living,
dang, now I feel like a villain,
Just chillin, getting mad, waiting for the mail
to come in.,
Hopeing to get a letter from you,
to change my color from blue,
just wish I could start over,
fresh and new!
Dear Bonnie:
How are you holding up? I hope pretty good. Ailie was a
wonderful friend. She helped me alot with my problems and
visa versa. Ailie is going to have a better life now. If you ever
need anything, please don't hesitate to call. If you ever want
to talk about anything, I have been told I am a good listener.
I am so sorry about what happened. School was hard for me
the next day. I am so happy that I got to see her when I did
at the mall. Ailie and I had alot of great times together.
I want to do something special for you and Robert, but just yet,
I don't know what it is. When I think of it, I will call. I need
your phone number so I can get ahold of you. I have included
some pictures of my birthday party a while ago. My favorite
is the one where Ailie is playing with the dog. She always
loved animals. I remember she could never have one because
of her allergies. Everyone is going to miss her so very much.
Ailie was always doing something! It didn't matter what it was!
I am glad she was a happy person all of the time. It is going
to be rough for awhile, but hold strong.
Always
Becky Carse
Day: End of Time
Date: 4-Ever
Mom:
People don't see what I see
and they'll never understand
No matter how much I miss Ailie
I must not cry...and be a man
I must not cry for my mother
I must not cry for my brother
I must be strong for my family.
For all I love, believe in, and trust
My strength and faith
will never bust.
I will not give up
for all I've got is
family and friends.
I know they will be there
till the end.
I love you Ailie. I'll keep an eye on mom, ok?
You keep an eye on me...
Love you Mom...
Cody Pearson
On December, 2001 I received a letter in the mail. It was addressed to Mom At my Address On the back of the envelope it said "I miss you mamma..don't cry, ok? i love you too... This is what the letter said: Mom, I'm leaving now to slay the foe Fight the battles high and low I'm leaving now, Mother, hear me go! Please wish me luck today. I've grown my wings, I have to fly, Seize my victories where they lie I've gone, Mom, but please don't cry.. Just let me find my way. I want to see and touch and hear.. Though there are dangers, there are fears... I'll smile my smiles and dry my tears. I'm off to find my world, my dreams, Carve my niche, sew my seams, Remember as I sail my streams... I'll love you all the way. xoxo A.P. A lost young petal, wondering souls, i see the dream you seek, follow me please, if you dare. the dream is coming - for you and me. I return by your side - with a heart in my hand. It is like a bright fire dancing - to the slow music turning. My heart as smooth as ivory, has turned lonely...i have retired my heart to you now, love me because i love you. xoxo A.P.
Whos That Girl I've seen her walking down the hall and her smile you could never miss it. People would also ask, "Who's that girl?" Some people would say "Ailie" and others would say "Smiley", but no matter what you called her she was always the same girl, with blonde hair, beautiful eyes and that smile that could light up a room when she walked in. She had that one thing that you couldn't ever figure out about her. You never could! She always made you smile. She would do almost anything to help someone out if she couldn't , she would find someone who could. You really never know how much you care about something or someone till they are gone and you can't get them back. So, always let your family and friends know how you feel so they know. I didn't get to, and I wish I could have. So, whoz that girl? She is Ailie Anna Amalia Pearson! Our Rocketgirl, our Angel, Our Smiley Bug, Our Kitten, Our Smiley Ailie! Born May 15, 1984 Died March 2, 2001 Age 16 Smiley She will be loved and never forgotten... Tricia Bugaiski |
| Subject:
Re: Sorrow From: "Bonita Gainor" <lillyann@mail> Date:
Wed, December 31, 1969 7:00 pm To: "Dave DiPaolo" <DDIPAOLO@gwec.com>
Dave DiPaolo writes:
Bonnie and Paul, I sent an e-mail to you a month ago or so but obviously you did not get it since Renee provided me with an incorrect e-mail address so I hope this one get's to you. I am so sorry to here about Ailie. I remember her when she was just a little girl and, deep within me, always felt something very special about her. She was blessed with such beauty and talent and I cannot imagine what you are going through at this time for this unexplained loss. I wish we could have stayed in contact over the years to watch the children grow because you never know what the future holds. Once again, I along with the Gary- Williams family offer our sincere sympathy to you during this time of sorrow. Hang in there. Dave DiPaolo |
In Loving Memory of Ailie
God gave you a little white rose
Perfect and wonderful from her head to her toes
As you rocked her to sleep at night
You looked down in your arms and thought
"What a wonderful sight!"
Her light blonde hair grew
and blew softly in the air
Her cool breezy eyes gave her
fine face flair.
Your white rose was almost in full bloom
When God called her to her heavenly room.
Now we must picture her held in God's arms
No longer vulnerable to this earth's harm
So Father, carry us through this
our darkest night
As our beautiful Ailie is on
her heavenly flight.
And God..kiss her goodbye
for each one of us here.
For there was not enough time
to hold her hear....
In His Love...Linda James
Trying not to think of you
is like trying not to breathe
Both are something I can't do
no matter how hard I try.
My thoughts are full of confusion
and I'm so very desperate,
to hear your voice
even though it may be an illusion
I'll wait forever for that chance...
Memories forever in our mind
the only thing we have left of you
Pictures we stare at until we go
blind...
constantly wanting our
pain to be through...
Not a day goes by
that you don't cross our thoughts
when something makes us cry
you're the comfort that was sought
We crave your hugs and kisses
wishing for just one more touch
Thats just one thing we miss...
so very much.
Roaming through my head
is every memory of you
Remembering every tear
that was shed..
because I cried them too.
At night I close my eyes,
and remember everything you
said
Even those tiny little lies
dancing around in my head..
Even when I drift to sleep
it's your face I see
In my dreams to keep
for all eternity..
LOVE...MELISSA
Dear Bonnie:
How are you? I'm fine, but I had
a few problems, so I just thought what
Ailie would say about it and I work
it out of my mind and laugh it off. I was
wondering if you would read this poem I
wrote about "Ailie Blue" and see if you
like it or not.
A an angel from the sky
I n the heavens above
watching over us.
L aying below us
I can still feel you in my
soul
E agerness for enjoyment
A n outgoing girl
N othing can stop her now
N o one in this world
can replace you..
A nd I remember when you
started
a fight with Andy for
touching
your butt and you got
caught by Mrs. Mee
A and forever and ever I will
M ake sure your always in my
heart
A nd I still can see you when
I dream at night
L ike a diamond
I n the sky
A little girl would say
"I love you mommy and I'll still
be your Smiley Ailie" in her mother's
heart..
P eople adored you
E ither you where asking for an
animal or for a fight
A nd you never stop until you
got what you wanted
R ead pretty blue eyes
like the sky
S kin like milk
O ur world most beautiful girl
is in the heavens within
our reach
N obody can stop you in the
heavens above...nobody
but YOU...
My Ailie Blue....
Love, Jennifer Visga
Bonnie:
Hey woman, hows life treatin you?
I hope alot better! Things are good
here. Getting better all the time.
Mom, I know that we cannot
change the past, but I wish we
could. I wish that none of us
ever would have gotten into the
car that day. I know that it doesn't
change anything, but for what
it's worth, I am so sorry.
You, Rob and Paul lost your little
girl because of me. It was my idea
to go back to mom's. That is
something I will think about
for the rest of my life. I cannot
begin to explain how sorry I am.
I know how special Ailie was/and
is to everyone. I felt it when I was
around her. I just can't understnd
why it was her and not one of us.
I wish she was still here with us in
person. Heaven knows that she's
here with us in spirit, but it
doesn't feel good enough.
Mom, this is honestly how I feel.
Nobody should blame Eric or
anyone else, they should blame
me. It was my idea to do. I
realized that we never should have
gone. All I can do is say that I am
so very, very sorry. I know that
doesn't make things better, I just
hope that it makes some kind of
peace in your hearts.
Love Always...
Charlotte Franklin
And God said....
I said, "God, I hurt."
and God said, " I know"
I said, "God, I cry alot."
and God said, "That is why I gave you tears."
I said "God, I am so depressed."
And God said, "That is why I gave you sunshine."
I said, "God, life is so hard."
And God said, "That is why I gave you loved ones."
I said, "God, my loved one died."
And God said, "So did mine"
I said, "God, it is such a loss."
And God said, "I saw my son nailed to a cross."
I said, "God, but your loved one lives."
And God said, "So does yours."
I said, "God where are they now?"
And God said, "Mine is on My right and yours is in the
Light."
I said, "God it hurts."
And God said, "I know"
Posted on the wall at the
Oklahoma City Bombing Site
by K.C. and Myke Kuzmic
Stockton, CA
| God, why did
you take me from this unfair place
As you take me away and leave no trace This beautiful, wonderul baby shall take my place with a warm smile and a heart of gold my soul she will hold Although you may not see me believe me when I say forever in me she will play Her soft skin and a smell so sweet it tends to sweep me off my feet For you, for me, for the baby... you save me in your heart we give this baby a new start When you see a pair of blue eyes think of my blue skies and never completely say goodbye... Love Katie, and brand new baby Ailie Ashley |
COMFORT FOR THOSE
WHO MOURN....
| So
many people imagine that death cruelly separates us from our loved
ones. Even pious people are led to believe this great and sad
mistake. When our loved ones die, they do not leave us. They
remain. They do not go to some dark and distant place. They
simply begin their eternity. We do not see them because we are
still in the darkness of the world. But their spiritual eyes,
filled with the light of heaven, are always watching us as they wait for
the day when we shall share their perfect joy. We are all born for
heaven and one by one, we end this life of love in endless
happiness.
I have often reflected upon this beautiful truth and found it the greatest and surest comfort in time of mourning. A firm faith in the real and continual presence of our loved ones has brought the conviction and consolation that death has not destroyed them, nor carried them away. Rather, it has given them life! A life with power to know fully and to love perfectly. With this new life and new power, our loved ones are always present to us, knowing and loving us more than ever before. The tears that dampen our eyes in times of mourning are tears of homesickness, tears of longing for our loved ones. But it is we who are away from home, not they. Death has been for them a doorway to an eternal home. And only because this heavenly home is invisible to our worldly eyes, we cannot see them so near us. Yet, they are with us, lovingly and tenderly waiting for the day when we too, will enter the doorway of our eternal home. No, death is not a separation. It is a preparation for eternal union with those we love, in the peace and joy of heaven! |
